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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 03:25

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

She married twice! .

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

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I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

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Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

We were not on the streets..

How do I become an intelligent man?

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Can I know a love story of a medical student?

Who then, do I blame.?

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

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One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I write beautiful poetry .

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

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19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I was 9 years of age.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

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But it wasn’t much.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

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Another so called friend had bit the dust..

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I never cut or harmed myself..

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He knew the spot.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

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And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

My waist finally looks like how it did before I had kids but I didn’t lose weight. Why am I still 15 lbs from my starting weight?

I was very sick at this time too.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

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Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

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My life is so biszare .

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

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When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Ive learnt so much.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

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He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Im still living with it.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I think the readers, may guess!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Was to survive, this bastard.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

She wouldn,t have been !

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I could never make a relationship work though!

I was seconnd youngest,

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

He was dying to do it , i knew.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Why did i forgive my father ?

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

My family never makes their pension either.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

He resisted the act ,that day.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I don,t even have a pension.

So whats the point in blame.

What did i know ?

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

And i lived it daily.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

One cannot live in the past .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

But, we were locked up after school.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Would this be the day?

Put me off passion for life!!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Especially a lifetime of it.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Comes on , in middle age.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I said to her

This is soul school!.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

She loved him until the end.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I have no regrets .

I will be 64.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I waited trembling.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

When she asked me how she looked .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

We all went to grammer schools

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I was scared of men, in general

So, i spoilt her more .

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

She was in good health!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

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He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

She found it foreign!.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

All the time i was locked up.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

It was going to be , some day.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.